Sunday, 15 May 2011

ME

11/04/11Me

So who am I now?
Things change when you have children, even more so when your child has special needs. So I think I've changed a great deal over the last 10 months.
I'm less selfish, more inclined to help, less inclined to whinge ( most days)
I'm more resilient
I'm less tolerant of crap. Don't bore me with your trivial day to day problems when I'm having a shite time. Seriously who said what to who about blah doesn't matter! and be prepared that I will tell you about inspiring people and children I have met. Keep things in perspective .
I'm not a martyr. Im finding things hard. I need counselling, id like a drink but that's just not possible. I'd like to get shitfaced on occasion but when your baby is up in the night and you have to be "on the ball " in case of problems it's simply not possible
I want to get and about, sometimes it's difficult but please don't leave me out
I want to know how your children are doing. Please don't think you can't share their accomplishments and your stresses. But I will share mine and expect small things to be met with a face of sheer delight or horror ( as appropriate ) if I rant it's not fr sympathy it's because I need to rant!
I see things differently.
I'm not devastated my second child is "different". He is who he is.
I talk in abbreviations, ASD, BIPAP, etc. Sorry.
I google everything. I will not see a doctor unprepared or take any shizz from them
I have grown a pair ( not literally obviously) and will stand up for things. So just don't start ok!!!
I can be a bitch, I am candid.
I love my two children and appreciate sooo much the special times I have with my daughter. She's such a big girl and has to put up with such a lot. Lub oo.
I am not just "Nates mam, you know know, Nate with the problems" I am thea and Nates mam, I HAVE A NAME and its Rachel x

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