Thinking about school

This time, 2 years ago, school for nate was the furthest thing from our minds. We were being hit by awful probable diagnoses and couldn't think further than a few weeks ahead. 

I didn't buy clothes for nate in end of season sales for  use "next year". I didnt even by next size clothes.

I bought a black dress. Just in case. 

 At the back of my mind is always nate's breathing problems and lack of diagnosis. I would love to think that the worst is behind us. But that's a dangerous thing to do. 

And now I am HAVING to think ahead. Nates's statement is underway and we need to think about finding the school that can best meet Nate's needs. There is only one school in our borough that can cater for Nate, so we are considering out of area too, with all the stress and battles that will entail should it prove to be the best place. 

I'm torn between actually being a bit excited about seeing schools, and upset that nate's needs are so complex we have little (no) real choice. These aren't going to be like the schools I went to or taught in. They cater for a range of additional needs and their facilities will reflect this. 

 I imagine facing the reality of how Nate will be schooled will be tough over the next few days.  

Still, i cant help but smile at reaching this point.