I'm really sorry. I said I wouldn't get stressed about it. I laugh it off if people ask. My family is all that matters.
But in all seriousness I am incredibly stressed about how we are going to manage.
Disability and sickness can happen to anyone. It isn't a "lifestyle choice" as an mp suggested. Believe me i'd love to have 2 healthy kids, my job, money, a mortgage. I didn't deliberately disable my son to get my sticky fingers on his DLA, I don't exaggerate his complex needs for measly amounts of money.
The financial reality for us is bleak. I have had to stop working ( but to be honest even my pt wage wasn't enough). Yes I have chosen to stop working but I'd like to know where I would manage to do my marking? At nates bedside in hospital? In waiting rooms? I was rarely there with hospital, ot, physio etc appointments. Who could look after Nate as well as me or Michael? My mam can't even lift him anymore and both my mam and mil are wary of his equipment and just how quickly he becomes seriously ill. Michael did a damn good job resusitating nate but thats too much responsibility for someone else. Financial problems were already building due to unpaid maternity leave, hospital stays, bills and food paid for by cards. It all adds up on top on manageable debt we had before.
So we are doing the thing that begins with "b". And it's expensive let me tell you. But it's the only way to start again. When your circumstances change as dramatically as ours have there isn't any help available. You struggle on until you reach breaking point.
We are bidding on houses each week available with the local authority as our house is a- unadaptable and small and b- we can't pay the mortgage anymore. They have told use we have significant high medical priority ( we have had no luck bidding so far) but not to worry we will get extra points when we are actually made homeless. Well that's just fucking brilliant isn't it. I have our portage worker and social worker on the case but portage were told we would end up in a hostel or b and b if homeless until they found somewhere. Portage told housing that was absolutely ridiculous with nates problems.
In addition our mps don't exactly fill me with positivity pushing through welfare reform to effectively screw the sick and disabled. It's nice to know that if my son survives to adulthood he will remain totally dependent on us financially for all his life
Last time I saw my dr for antidepressants he asked if I still felt like a donkey on the edge( I had used that shrek quote the previous time) and I can honestly say this donkey is most definitely on the edge.
If our receivers/ creditors/ judge are reading this *waves* . We didn't run up debt on flash cars, holidays, clothes, shoes, nights out. It happened because you can't predict the future. And you try to manage as best you can for as long as you can.
